God is not looking at what we look like, He is looking at the need in our heart, and His compassion compels us to love others, in profound ways and acts of kindness, like giving your Bible away that you just got and were so happy about. I miss my Bryan...he is here, I take care of him at home and am honored to do so....but I so miss his laughter and his hugs and his kind spirit. I do have to tell you though, his kind spirit touches my heart everyday! Now that I'm all in tears....I think I'll go and let God love on me a little bit. God bless you all. Thanks for being here with us. I guess I will write little bits and pieces of our story here instead of waiting to get larger portions of my book together...writing this little bit, really dug up tears I did not know were there...healing is a process, I'm healing as I am sharing his story. ...deep breath....means I need HIS PEACE IN MY HEART AND I'M GOING TO BREATH DEEPLY WHILE HIS PEACE COMES, HE IS THE COMFORTER. I'll write more later, this was hard.